it's one of those days when all you could do is cry... not because you want to, but because you are given no choice... but to weep, and let the tears flow. for they are the tears not of your eyes, but of your heart... and there is nothing much you can do to dry them.



disillusioned... yet again.

well, well... it's one of those times when your bright yellow highliter becomes your best friend, when you finally get to reading those handouts you photocopied, when you had to skip class to cram for an exam you should have studied for weeks ago... yes, my friends, it's hell week in school.



this week was really, really tight. as in choking tight. we had a test for OrCom 140 today (one of my major subjects), and to tell you the truth, i cut my first class to study for it. to think i had the whole day off yesterday because we had no classes... naturally i played Bomber Man on my sister's Gameboy, watched the Drew Carey Show and Whose Line Is It Anyway?, and dilly-dallied for several hours before i got around to studying -- or rather, big-time cramming.



we also have a research proposal for the same subject, and what do you know, we're the first presentors! but then again my partner and i are trying to console ourselves with the thought that at least we've got it over with, when the time comes that it's super hell week (yes, it can get worse) in school.



also due this saturday is a theoretical background for this paper we're writing for Intercultural Communication. and get this: a friend of mine passed her 3-page introduction last monday and my professor said it was "too flimsy." TOO FLIMSY?!?!?!?! 3 pages for an introduction is more than enough! and as if she's such a great teacher. ugh.



lastly, we had a surprise quiz in SocSci 2 today. and my score would probably be... 3/15. hideous.



and so i'm ending this entry now, coz i know i'm sounding as interesting as my teacher's monologue on the Hobbesian view of Social Contracts. but let us not lose hope... summer vacation is just around the corner -- so near, i can almost smell it... haha. :D



oh, and by the way, care to make my guestbook happy?

hectic school week. sorry i haven't been blogging.



due to the innumerable projects that have come pouring in from nowhere, my life has turned into boring, boring, boring. nothing but headaches, pressure, tension, handouts, papers, interviews, schoolwork, here and there. but i know my priorities and i believe my studies should come first.



i'll blog when i get more time, k?



hugs to all who signed my gbook! plugs -- to follow. :D

belated valentine's day to everyone! :D



had a great day yesterday... just thinking about it makes me giddy all over again. :D



although i wasn't with my valentine yesterday (due to time and distance constraints), i was nevertheless happy. my 5:30-7pm class cancelled on us, so we only had two classes yesterday. my friend Mina and i went to watch two for the knight, a Regine Velasquez-Brian McKnight concert... and it was so... uhmm... beyond words. :D If anyone watched the Corrs concert last September, you will remember what happened when they sang "Runaway", when all the people were waving their back-lighted cellphones in the air and it looked like thousands of tiny stars amidst the dark Araneta Coliseum... well it happened again last night. :D while Brian McKnight was singing "One Last Cry"... hmmm... very, very magical.



and, as if that wasn't enough, when i got home, there was a box with a single, long stemmed red rose lying on my bed... with a letter that read:



"...as you said, it all started with a single rose. and you know what? things haven't changed. i still feel just like the way i did when i gave you one for the first time. the only difference is, this feeling grew deeper..."



*pauses for a moment and gets this dreamy, lovestruck look*



i'm wishing you all a valentine's day as beautiful, magical and memorable as mine. :D

dammit.

2 days to go before valentine's day...



I would ask for still more, if I had the skies with all its stars and the world with its endless riches; but I would be content with the smallest corner of this earth, if only she were mine. -R. Tagore... saw it here.

as promised... :D much love to Carlo, Bel, Abbey, Frances, Mitch, Psyche, Candace, Katrina, Niks and Marz. you made both my guestbook and *me* veeery happy. :D

hmmm... just got back from school. had a long day... woke up at around 5:30 am because i'm supposed to have my physical exam for next year's enrolment. you might be wondering why i got up so early... it's because UP is known for its notorious lines, and yes, it can take you 3-5 hours just to know whether or not you're physically fit to enrol next sem. but i'm not complaining; after all, it's for free. and i'm paying next to nothing for my tuition fee. and when i graduate, companies will be all over themselves trying to hire me. okay so the last part may not be true. but still.



so there... my 5:30 - 7pm class was socsci2, you know, the great political thinkers (although i often fail to see what's so great about them)... and my prof refused to let us get the day off on thursday -- valentine's day. i mean, it ain't so big a deal for me, considering that i'm not really planning to go anywhere and all... but it's still a bit depressing thinking of all those couples holding each others' hands on valentine's night, while we're stuck in a cold classroom trying to justify why thomas hobbes wrote about the poor, short, nasty, brutish and solitary life of men. talk about romantic.



oh, well, that's life. before i forget, thanks to all those who signed the guestbook (specially the paulinians! :D) i'm gonna plug you all tomorrow. but right now i'm gonna go get some sleep. kapeesh?

took this.



the result:



Your mind is never at rest ..You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard...Take it easy... remember - "Everything comes to those who wait".



You are not be feeling so good at this time. Everything seems to be getting on top of you ... What you need is a rest from all of the the present trials and tribulations.. in peaceful surroundings and with someone.. Male or Female,... it doesn't really matter, but it is to be with someone who can really understand you and appreciates your needs.



Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are ... You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.



From every direction there appears to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress..You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them, but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your "thing" in your own way...



You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time.... You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer .... MOVE!



hmmm... it isn't that accurate... but it's okay.

choral recitation update: WE WON! We won! Yey! We really won! Out of five competing schools, St. Paul bagged the first place for both choral recitation and Sabayang Pagbigkas (its Tagalog counterpart). And, as if that wasn’t enough, St. Paul was also awarded the title of Over-all Champion for the BAPPSA Musical, Literary and Academic Competitions – for the third straight year. (BAPPSA is an association for all public and private schools is Paranaque.)



I am proud to be a Paulinian of Paranaque. And times like these make me even prouder. :D

didn't go online for two days. why? well...



yesterday, i cut P.E. class to go to St. Paul and teach the choral recitation people. competition is scheduled for tomorrow and we were cramming because we haven't finished the actions for the entire piece. we practiced for eight long hours until we got it all done... by the time i went home my muscles were begging for mercy... it was really tiring... but i had to prepare for a report and a quiz for the next day. i didn't get to watch the drew carey show, whose line is it anyway? (my favorite) and the pilot episode for the new season of ally mcbeal! oh well.



i was in school for the whole day today. 9am-7pm... got home at around 9pm. uhmm... that's about it.



i hope we would be able to do our best tomorrow. we worked real hard for this performance for the past couple of weeks... it would make me real happy if all the work would somehow pay off.



please pray for us, everyone! :)



thanks to mikko and jannie for tagging my gbook. :) how 'bout you? :)

give 'em some loving!!!



jannie, denise, bel, Ang Aming Katha, mitch. new link, new domain, new layout, new issue and great host respectively. :D

Now i got it! Anyway, i just got back from my high school alma mater (st. paul) because I've been training some students for an inter-school choral recitation. It was really tiring... Tiring, but fun. The contest will be held this Friday and we're actually *cramming* to finish all the actions and polish it on time. I'm planning to cut P.E. class tomorrow so we can practice the whole day. Oh well.



A lot of people are asking me if I was getting paid for this, and honestly, I'm not. I don't even get food allowance at times. A lot of them think I'm crazy for accepting such responsibility, but I don't know... Maybe I really am crazy. But it gives me a certain kind of fulfillment when I teach; it gives me a different kind of adrenaline rush. Plus, I feel like I am actually reliving my high school days. I love competition, and there is no other feeling as nice as being part of a winning team.



But then again, we still have to wait and see. I really do hope we win. The students I am training deserve nothing less. (Go St. Paul! :D)



By the way, whatchoo think of my new layout? :) (Be gentle!)

why can't i make this thing work?????

new layout! :D

low cellphone bill this month! yey! :)

Barbecue sauce is the best thing that ever happened to McDonald's Chicken Nuggets. Uh-hmm!